learn. to not try. to be able to not be affected anymore. the conversation ends there. let it be. don’t bother. i’m different. nvm. treat how others treat u. don’t do more to not expect more. be firm.>
I shouldnt be feeling upset and feeling this grudge against you. But every single time your small actions show so much and it makes me disappointed and it stings my heart. Its hard for me to treat you normal or even nice or neutral anymore. And Im not going to feel inferior towards anyone anymore, whats there to be inferior or sorry about when I havent done anyone anything wrong? Or unless my mere existence makes you annoyed, I’m sorry for that, yet for someone whom I treated as a close friend. Live with it. Perhaps im still trying to fully let it go and not feel affected, perhaps I still secretly wish you’d prove me wrong sometime, perhaps I wish you would realise what I have been put to feel all this while or perhaps i’m wishing you’ll just simply wish to befriend or feel better about me someday. Its gonna take some time for that feeling to go away, to feel numb, meanwhile its really not easy to feel the least not negative towards you. I dont think i should even bother giving you anything anymore and seem like a fool who listens to excuses or half hearted responses. Yea.. so I gonna #treatmyselfbetter. So is it alright for me to feel and look at things this way?>
나도 가끔 피곤해 나도 도망하고싶은 그만하고싶은 그런때도 있어. 지금 좀 좋은 목소리 필요해.. 노래 들자.>
maybe i’m just tired.
and when it starts it comes and it’s crashing me down right now. all at once.>